Years ago as I was going through my first post divorce break up, I reached out to a friend of mine who happened to be a priest. I was shocked at the age of 34 that it still felt the same as it did when my first boyfriend dumped me for a fellow cheerleader in tenth grade. I guess I thought since I was older, it would somehow be easier. Well, it wasn't. I can't recall why he said this to me, but it has stayed with me all these years as I approach 44 so 10 years later, I still hold dear those words, "Dancing in faith is like taking two steps forward and one step back"
I believe this is simply just the life dance.
If all I ever did was move forward, would I be the person I am today? Of course not. It's the steps back that draw me closer to God. It's the steps back that give me compassion and experience to share when others fall back. It's the steps back that make me appreciate every step forward. It's the steps back that grant me the wisdom I need to get back up and move in the right direction. I have heard it said many times, it's ok to look back, just don't stare.
The steps back show us who we are and what we are made of. It's not about the fall, it's about what we do next. If you know me, you know I love to turn up my music loudly and dance. You might even spot me dancing at the gas pump, and most definitely around the house or until the Music stops at Mardi Gras.
I want you to think about that first school dance. Think about all the people who just sit on the sidelines. Some claim they have no rhythm. Others are embarrassed to get their groove on. Some people are worried what everyone will think of their moves. So they miss the dance. That my friends is fear. Does it really matter if you can't moonwalk
Like Michael or jam like Janet? No. Does it really matter what people think about you? No. Another one of my dear wise friends just told me last night, "Christy what other people think about you is none of your business." No one lives your life but you! She is so right. If we aren't getting up to dance, that's our own fear. Fear and faith can't coexist. So today I challenge you to join me in this fun, sometimes crazy, exhilarating, dance called life. Today I am just as grateful for the steps back as I am the steps forward. I can recognize that my life is mine to live. No one walks my shoes. No one knows what makes me happy, but me. My dance is my dance. If I don't get up and groove, I'm missing out on all the good things life has to bring. If I dance or if I don't dance, there will always be those people who judge me. There will always be those poor Souls who choose to look at everyone else's lives because they are too miserable to look at their own. Don't let them keep you from getting your groove on. Just get up and dance. Faith will keep you moving forward. Fear will hold you back. Today I know that faith is simply realizing, when I can't, God can, and I let him. Crank it up friends, and I'll see you on the dance floor of life!