Bring on 45

As I enter into the 45th year of my life, I have stopped looking at what I need to change in others, and strive to always look at what I can change in myself. I know without a doubt today that no one can make me feel anything that I don’t already feel about myself. So when I do feel bad about myself, it’s my sole responsibility to simply change my attitude and stay off the pity pot. I’ve come to the realization that I cannot focus on what I don’t have, I have got to focus on what I do have which is an amazing life full of Gods grace and blessings. I have learned to find the good in everything and grow from it. Ive often heard it said nothing worth having ever comes easy. I’m not sure why that has to be the case, but I have found it to be sound and true in my own life. Although, I do believe that the right things are simple. It is easy in todays hecticcrazy world to complicate them. There are no mistakes in life, just lessons. Some lessons are more painful than others. That pain always brings more strength and more growth as long as I keep the focus on myself and what my role was in the situation. I am really good at messing up a good thing, and I can recognize that today, but I am a work in progress. In my defense, I am simply doing the best I can with what I’ve got. Isn’t this your case as well? I do know that if something is meant to be or if it is really right, God will repair it even if I manage to mess it up out of fear or plain stupidity. God will make it all work the way he wants it to work. He sure isn’t in the business of giving me the things I want, but I always get exactly what I need. I’ve learned more than ever this year about how God will put a lot of people in our lives for different reasons. Some of those people will amaze you, some of them will open your eyes, some will hurt you, or disappoint you, in turn you will hurt and disappoint some of them, some will fool you, while others will sweep you off your feet and show you things you have never seen about yourself and make you feel or open up in ways you thought weren't even possible anymore. Some will stay, some will go, some will change your perspective, while others will remain a part of you always even if you never lay eyes on them again. Hands down I know for certain that there isn’t anything in this world happening without some sort of reason as bad or good as it may be. So as I launch into year 45, I pray for acceptance. I pray that I can just accept that my life is exactly as it should be. It is nowhere near where I want it to be, but no one says I have to like where I am today. I just have to accept it.  I must believe without a doubt that all things are working out for my good. I’m turning 45 as a fit, fun loving, intelligent great mother with a immense sense of style. I’ve been told talking to me is cathartic. I’m not sure if that’s a good thing or not. The jury is still out on that one. I LOVE love, I appreciate a great meal and I adore a killer dessert. I have an amazing group of friends and family in my life, and God has given me two unbelievable children. I have a job I love that gives me a killer closet as an added bonus. I strive everyday to live my life to the fullest. Survival is for the birds not someone like me! So let’s give this a try again this year and make 45 my year!!! As always, I am just a girl who has picked up a little wisdom along the way from all the people God puts in my path. I tend to ramble and speak my mind so take what you like and leave the rest. Happy soon to be 45 to me!!

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