"The Inside Job"


"The Inside Job"
At the age of 15, right after I had my wisdom teeth removed, I had my first heartbreak. Puffy cheeks, sick from the meds, and a miserable feeling in my mouth, he did it. He dumped me for .... lets call her Betty Mitchum. Yes Betty was a friend and a fellow cheerleader. She always had this great tan and good legs. He even was mean enough to cheer her name to me through a megaphone. Yes he really did that. Give me a B E T T Y! Lovely!! I was devasted and I can remember crying to my Mom, and she said something to me that would take another 25 years to really stick! " No one can make you happy, but yourself. Others can add to it, but your happiness is your own responsibility." It sounded easy enough. After all, when I set my mind to something I made it happen so I was certain I could do this too. I fooled myself for years. I pretty much always had a boyfriend. I was always a good girl, and tried to do the right things. When I loved, I loved. I gave 100 percent in all these relationships I was in. Obviously, none of them seemed to work.  You see Girls and guys, we attract what we ourselves are. If we r crazy, well crazy finds us. Have u ever had that friend who just can't understand why everyone she dates is crazy? Well I learned a while back, if I find myself surrounded by crazy, then I better start taking a hard long look at myself. Or maybe you find yourself with someone who just doesn't seem to be happy with their self. Maybe they have a low self esteem. Maybe nothing you do is ever enough. Or maybe nothing they do is ever enough. Whether that person is beautiful, rich, kind, loving,  or the hottest thing you have ever laid your eyes on, if you aren't happy inside its not going to be enough for either of you ever!!! Honestly, if I could tell you how to get there, I'd make millions. Here is what worked for me. I had to get knocked down, dumped, heart broken, break a few hearts, and simply want things to be different. None of those things had a thing to do with anyone, but Me and one very important person God!! You see he never says your will be done. He says thy will be done. So I tried his will over my own. I realized we go through all these things to show us who we are. There are no mistakes only lessons. If I wanted something different, then I needed to be the different first. If I wanted to truly be happy, I had to figure out what made me happy and get there on my own. I spent a lot of years trying to be sure everyone else was happy hence neglecting myself. I also did my best to find happiness through others.  Have u ever had someone tell u that you ruined their day? Or maybe you blamed someone for ruining yours? Well pity party population is one!! No one can ruin your life, day, career, trip, etc unless you let them!! Your Happiness or sanity is your responsibility. So today I challenge you whatever situation you may be in, married, divorced, widowed, recently dumped, in a relationship with a jerk, or in one with a great person. Wherever u may be, know that you are exactly where you are meant to be. But, choose to be happy with yourself. And don't dare put your happiness in someone else's hands. It's simply not fair to anyone involved. Figure out what makes you happy and do it. It's life changing!! People will catch your happiness. Trust me, it's contagious, and who knows how many lives can change. Not because you made them happy or changed them, but because you changed yourself and found your own happiness allowing those around you to find their own as well.

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